Story of one Portrait
Those are my grandparents. I draw this portrait of my grandparents back in 2005, way before I heard my call to explore metaphysical world with hypnosis. Or maybe this was a call?
I looked at the copy of a beautiful studio photograph taken in 1933, in Bessarabia. They are getting married. I am painting this portrait now, as gift to my father – their youngest son.
I didn’t have a chance to meet my grandmother Rebecca; she died suddenly when my father was a kid. Family story tells that she died from penicillin injection, heaving rare allergy that caused sudden death.
Rebecca had a physic gift and was known for her abilities; people were coming to her for readings.
She foresaw her sudden death. My aunt told me that few days before the accident Rebecca took off her jewelry and brought it to a friend neighbor, saying: “ I will die and my husband would bury me with this jewelry, so please
keep it safe and give it to him after the funeral”. This is exactly what happened.
So, I was sitting and painting this portrait in our first apartment in Los Angeles. I had painted many portraits before and this one is just one of them, with some hint of emotions and sentiments. My grand father’s figure and face came up easily and effortlessly, I was working and bringing up memories from my childhood and adolescence, thinking of him, his role and impact in my life.
Now, it is time to paint Rebecca’s portrait. She has this straight gaze in to the viewer’s eyes…
I newer knew her, but the feeling I get from looking at her was very familiar. It is not easy to paint, and emotions that came up were quite strong and they were interfering with my work!
I didn’t think much of it first, just continuing painting layer after layer changing and repainting again and again, but this is not an easy process, definitely very different from all the other portraits of other people that I have ever done before.
So I took a pause, and started to analyze what is happening, and what was the feeling I was having?.
Suddenly I realized that the feeling I get while painting her is the same exact feeing I have when I paint my self-portraits, when I paint MYSELF!
And this is what struck me the most! Why I feel like I am drawing myself while I am paining my grandmother Rebecca? I became so curios!
Ten years later, in 2015, after completing QHHT Level 1, I did my first exchange session with another practitioner I had this question on my list:
“ Why was it such an emotional process to paint my grandmother Rebecca?”
The answer I got was:
“SHE IS HER”
Another 5 years passed since then, I pursued my carrier in Hypnosis becoming QHHT Level 2 and currently working toward my Level 3.
Through my hypnosis sessions I learned about my soul connections with my kids and my husband in this life. Who are we to each other? What kind of experiences we had together in different times and in different roles? How are we here to assist each other in this experience?
Having this information helped me tremendously to understand their purpose and the best way I can assist them.
But the most important is that my relationship with them in current life became better ones I have learned what are we here to teach each other and how we are supporting each other’s growth.
Looking back at this 15 years journey I am grateful for the guidance of my family and my grandmother Rebecca.
I am Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique Practitioner Level 3, and I deeply love and appreciate the legacy of Dolores Cannon.
I would be happy to answer your questions about the technique and facilitate your QHHT experience. My hypnotherapy office is located in Los Angeles, CA
Alexandra Sasha Tarakanov
Certified Hypnotherapist CHt
Reiki Master and Teacher
QHHT Level 3 Practitioner